MATILDA Ahdrian had her rectum removed and her anus sewn shut to save her life – a major operation that's been dubbed ‘Barbie Butt'.
“I don’t have a bum hole anymore – just like Barbie!” the 28-year-old who lives in Gothenburg, Sweden, said.
After years of suffering from a painful , the fashion project manager chose surgery that also left her with a permanent .
“It sounds crazy, but honestly, it saved my life,” she explained.
Matilda was 15 when she was diagnosed with – an inflammatory bowel disease (IBD).
Around 296,000 people in the UK have been diagnosed with ulcerative colitis, according to the NHS – that’s about 1 in every 227.
And while it can develop at any age, it’s most often spotted between the ages of 15 and 25.
This meant her teenage years were consumed by pain, hospital visits, fevers, and an increasingly fragile body.
“I had flare-ups, constant bleeding, cramping, and this unbearable urgency to be near a toilet,” Matilda said.
“It ruled my life. I tried every medication, but nothing worked,” she added.
By 17, doctors had “no choice” but to rush Matilda into emergency , remove her entire colon and give her a stoma bag.
“It was such a relief,” she said.
“I was sick, I had a 41-degree fever – I just wanted to get my life back.”
Contrary to expectations, the stoma didn’t derail Matilda’s teenage dreams – it revived them.
“At first, I panicked,” she said.
“I thought I’d never wear tight clothes again, or go to prom, or even graduate feeling confident.
“But I did it all. The stoma gave me my freedom back. I could live again.”
Thirteen years later, the stoma she once feared has a name – Gunnar – and has become a permanent part of her life.
‘I knew it was time'
But it wasn’t until December 2024, just five months before her wedding, that Matilda decided to take the final step.
It involved undergoing what’s known in medical terms as a – the removal of her rectum and anus – making her stoma permanent.
She said: “I had been dealing with a disconnected but still inflamed rectum for over a decade.
“It caused bleeding, cramping, so many problems and eventually, I developed a fistula too.”
“I knew it was time,” she added. “It was either this, or risk everything right before my wedding. So I said, let’s go Barbie.”
Since then, she's turned her health battle into a message of empowerment, sharing every raw, funny, and honest moment online – leaks, scars, and all.
Still healing from her , Matilda has admitted it hasn’t all been glamorous.
“It’s been four months and my wound still hasn’t fully healed,” she explained.
“It drains, it aches, and it tests your patience.
“But I keep reminding myself I did this for my future. For a life without pain. And for my wedding.”
“Now I get to walk down the aisle without shame, and hopefully no pain or fear. I’ve never felt more like myself.”
Speaking of the big day, Matilda is counting down the weeks until she marries her supportive fiancé, who’s been by her side through every hospital stay and tough decision.
“He’s my rock,” she said, “we talked everything through, and he said he didn’t want me to struggle anymore.”
She added: “He makes me feel beautiful even when I feel at my lowest.”
‘The right person will love you ‘
Matilda says her confidence hasn’t always been this high, but learning to embrace her body was the key.
“Your stoma doesn’t define you. It’s a part of you, not you,” she explained.
Matilda encourages other women worried about love, dating, or marriage after stoma surgery to own their truth.
“If someone has a problem with your stoma, they’re not the one,’ she said. “The right person will love you for you – hole or no hole!”
