LIAM Payne's sister Ruth has paid an emotional tribute to the star six months after his tragic death.
Thestarat the age of 31 afterin Argentina.
older sister shared a heartbreaking post – saying she's finding it “impossible to live without him”.
Ruth penned: “Six months, half a year without you?!
“My head is still screaming for you. Each morning on waking, I feel like I am plunged underwater, gasping for air that never comes to relieve me.
“Living without you is impossible, so for now, I exist.
“I'm learning to laugh or smile in the right places, but mate, it's exhausting when all I want to do is speak to you.”
The grieving sibling admitted she finds some comfort in reminiscing on the happy memories she shared with Liam.
She continued: “In the few moments I allow myself to feel love and not just loss, I can really smile at memories of us, like last year when we were doubled over laughing at us trying to make something we'd seen on YouTube, but memories are always tinged with sadness at how unfair it is we can't make new ones.”
Ruth said she sometimes hears Liam's laugh and feels him around her – believing it to be little signs that he's guiding her.
“I can sometimes hear you laughing at me walking around like Whoopi Goldberg in ‘ghost', looking for you everywhere I go,” Ruth added.
“I see you though, you're always coming through in different ways to put me back on the right path.”
It comes just days after Liam's girlfriend Kate Cassidy fought back tears in an emotional video as she sent a to the late star.
Influencer , 26, had been dating for two years when he died.
until two days before his death.
Kate shared a heartfelt tribute to the Liam in a moving video, reflecting on grief, love, and the memories they made together.
Filming herself as the sun set in front of her, Kate began, “I just felt the need to come on here and speak.” Sitting outside in Charleston, , she revealed she was still struggling to come to terms with Liam’s passing.
“I am watching the sunset right now and I know that Liam's here with me, but I still can't fully wrap my head around the fact that he's not physically here with me,” she said.
She explained that she remains in Charleston, a place that now holds deep emotional significance for her, adding: “I love the city so much and I will always have love for the city and the city will hold such a special spot in my heart for the rest of my life.”
In a poignant moment, Kate described the quiet pain of realising Liam will no longer be part of her future experiences.
She shared: “One thing I've caught myself saying so often while being here and even before being here, I catch myself saying, Liam would love this, instead of Liam would have loved this.
“Saying those words out loud in the present tense, but realizing that it's something that isn't present and he's not gonna be able to make these new memories with me or relive past memories with me... It's something really, really hard to wrap my head around still.”
Fighting back emotion, Kate quoted a line that has been echoing in her mind: “There's this quote that lives rent free in my mind and it says, ‘To grieve deeply is to be loved fully.’”
She added: “This resonates with me a lot, and instead of realizing what I've lost, I realise how lucky I was to even have that in the first place and to have that love. And it's something that will never go away.”
KATE'S STRUGGLE
Spending time with her friends comes as some light relief for Kate, , trying to come to terms with .
and dealing with the pain of such an enormous loss.
Speaking to ITV‘s , she said: “I'm going through this healing journey, sometimes it's hard for me to get out of bed in the morning and something I don't want to do.
“But I have this responsibility and this obligation that I am almost in a way… I have no choice.
“I have to get out of bed (for my and whether it's a five-minute walk or 20-minute walk first thing in the morning.
“Either way, it just wakes me up and refreshes my mind instead of laying in bed all day just scrolling through social media or old photos, it gets me out of bed and really, really helps my mindset and my mental health.”
LOSING LIAM
Kate had been staying with Liam in but flew back to America before .
In an interview with Flying Eze last month
She added: “Love is so optimistic, and you just hope that everything will work out at the end.
“Obviously if I knew, if I could see into the future, I would never have left Argentina.”
